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To be honest, I’ve not been as attentive as I’ve needed to be, because the Captain’s first year of school has been very difficult, and it’s required much TLC and fancy footwork, and other words that begin with the letter F.
I cannot remember how much I’ve discussed it on the blog, but my son has special needs. When in school, this can become tricky. You see, he has fairly severe ADHD and SPD or Sensory Processing Disorder (previously known as SID/Sensory Integration Disorder) He’s also quite gifted. This makes things even more tricky.
I know most of you have never heard of sensory processing disorder, let alone know someone affected by it. I’ll do my best to succinctly explain it. There are two types of SPD, Over-feelers and Under-feelers, though most children with SPD exhibit aspects of both, with one side being dominant. Over-feelers tend to shy away from highly sensory activity, aren’t particularly physically affectionate, may or may not have issues with fabrics/clothing/touch, etc. Under-feelers are precisely the opposite. They touch everything–firmly. They tend to love highly sensory activities, and are very physically affectionate.
The Captain is very much an underfeeler with a few feely-quirks thrown in.
Imagine going through your day in a space suit. This is essentially how it is for him. Because he feels things so subtly, he has a tendency toward inappropriate behavior like stomping, mouthing, yelling, hugging too hard, touching everything, etc. He also loves his showers HOT and his food SPICY (not a sweets fella…his reward for not fussing over the polio vax? wasabi peas) he loves lying in his undies on shag rugs, and frequently bounces up and down or wrings his hands just to feel the friction and grounding it provides. His “feely” quirks are on the range of skin issues. He hates socks, shoes, gloves, and hats.
Because he doesn’t feel things in the manner of most of us, this makes his manual manipulation very poor for a boy of his age. His handwriting/buttoning/zippering/shoe-tying are a few years behind his peers, whereas his mental acuity, problem solving, reasoning, and logical skills are several grades above his peers. (I pity the poor fools who will one day play him in Warcraft.)
As you can imagine, this makes it difficult for him in school. Throw the ADHD on top of that? Yeah, it can be a cluster fuck. Right now it’s a bit of an uphill battle to keep him in the classroom he loves, balanced with the needs that he has. More than once, the man and I have turned to one another, completely confounded as to what to do. Do we homeschool? Move him? Keep fighting against the tide where he is currently? There are seldom satisfying answers to any of these questions.
Because of this, I spend a disproportionate amount of my time researching everything I can about how I can make his life just a little easier. Mostly, I’m also wringing my hands, because I get so frustrated for him.
So that’s where I’ve been. Yesterday, when I should’ve been posting Sunday Sweet, I was intermittently hyperventilating and trying not to get upset in front of the Captain, because he was having a very rough day, and I was worried it would bleed into the school week. He was off-the-charts excitable and was having an especially “low-feeling” day. He was mouthing EVERYTHING, and stomping everywhere, and I eventually spooned red pepper flakes onto his spaghetti, just so that he’d eat it. I was so worried he’d have it rough today, and I was feeling guilty, because I felt like I was neglecting everything and everyone else just so that I could focus on his needs. Thank all the gods he’s had a great morning. (and that no one cares that I’ve neglected the vacuuming!)
Now that things are, *fingers crossed* starting to settle, I too can begin to once again form a solid routine. More than anything, I just want the Captain to be able to relax a bit. No five-year-old boy should worry about school as much as he has.
If only I had a magic wand.
I have cookies, though, and that’s close.
Browned-Butter Vanilla Bean Sugar Cookies
Browned-Butter Vanilla Bean Sugar Cookies
Prep Time: 15 minutes
Cook Time: 10 minutes
Keywords: bake dessert cookie
Ingredients (3 dozen cookies)
- 1 stick butter, browned (cooked on medium until brown)
- 2 cups sugar
- 1 vanilla bean, scraped
- 1 tsp baking powder
- 1/2 tsp salt
- 2 eggs
- 2 cups flour
- 1/2 cup dark chocolate, melted
preheat oven to 350F
brown butter on stove on medium until brown and clear
remove from stove and whisk in sugar until lighter
when cooler, whisk in eggs
scrape vanilla bean into mixture
sift in dry ingredients
set chocolate aside
bake 10-12 minutes or until crackly
drizzle when cool with dark chocolate (melted in the microwave)