So God must have heard my prayers because today at the OBGYN, I was 2-3 centimeters dilated. Which means…May 7th they are taking me in. (If I make it that far.) So for the next 10 days, I am on bedrest(ish). Keep her in until 38+weeks and have MY doctor there to deliver her. Elijah is NOT ready. Today at the doctor when she looked at my little man and asked him, "Are you ready for your baby sister to come?" He promptly replied "no" and went back to watching "buzz wite-ear" on Tim's iphone.
Let me tell you, I hadn't been on bedrest for 6 hours and I was already tired of it. My ADHD immediately went out of control. There were a million things I could be doing other than laying in bed watching "Seinfeld" reruns. Laundry, cooking dinner, changing sheets on the bed, ANYTHING but being forced to just lie there like cheese on a biscuit. Seriously, I go for 37 weeks DYING to lie in bed and do nothing, but when I am forced to do it, I go crazypants. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME?!?! Seriously. But it seems my early Mother's day gift WILL be my daughter. Yay. Yay.Yay. I can't wait to meet her.
On a COMPLETELY different note, did any of you see this little gem? Or maybe, this one? Remember the unfortunate, tragic suicide of the girl in Massachusetts last year? Well it seems as though the offenders are trying to plea out. Also, to add insult to injury, a new study shows that 1 in 4 Mass. students are bullied. I can't decide how I feel about the plea deal. On one hand, I don't want more young lives ruined because of this incident, and on the other hand, as a victim of vicious bullying, I don't think they should be allowed a plea-deal, and if ONE IN FOUR kids are being bullied, I am even more unsure what to do. I am fairly certain there is no right answer to this. These kids were VICIOUS. Taking their attacks to the internet and making them public forever. This poor girl thought the only way out was to take her own life. I know that feeling. For a period of time in my senior year of high school, I was hospitalized for suicidal thoughts. I was fortunate enough to have parents that knew what to do and a few really, really, good friends to support me. Beautiful women who are still my friends today. These girls and guys are being attacked on all fronts. It's far worse now than when I was in high school. If you're overweight, with the click of a button, the whole world can see your problem areas without you knowing it. Information is disseminated at a rate unfathomable to us ten years ago. The bullying carries a heavier weight. It's permanently out there. You can't take it back. Everything is recorded. All that I hope is that I can raise my children to understand that just NOT bullying isn't enough. You need to be the one to stick up for those being bullied. I had friends like that. Everyone deserves friends like that.